Feeling so tired and lazy today so I just got up and did 15 mins on the treadmill so that I have had least done something. I have done nothing else all day. NOTHING. it was good but I feel kind of guilty.

Have plans for a big week though. Doing week five of C25K, going to give yoga a try and tomorrow I am off to the local footy oval with Avah for a bit of running/sprinting/walking/collapsing.

Went out for tea last night and I did not drink. I know, I know, I was shocked myself.

Weigh day tomorrow.

Have been so busy with work (farking work) the past few days and have also had a head cold (farking head cold) that is driving me insane.

Work is done now and I have the rest of the week off so I am going to get stuck into gym and C25K - Week 5 COME AT ME BRO!!! (not really, am a bit scared of you).

I am sooo excited, because I created a bit of a challenge for myself that takes me up to the end of the year. Less than 14 weeks to go! It is up on my wall in the bathroom so I can see it everyday.

Along with a weight loss target I am going to set some fitness goals too. (Not sure what they are yet)

On Sunday I weighed in at 106.4 kilos (234.08 pounds) so I am aiming for 104.9 kilos (230.78 pounds) this week. If I aim for the moon and miss I will end up in the stars right? Right!

Such a bah-u-ti-ful day.

Had a glorious sleep in this morning. Kept checking on all the marathoning, running, swimming and other activities that all the fit people in my ipad were doing. Got all inspired and jumped up and did Week 4/Day 3 of C25K.

Smashed it. So happy that week 4 is finally done and dusted. It was dragging on and on because of all the stuff happening over the past few weeks. Wish I was burning more calories though.

Don’t I look happy? lol. Well, when you are hot and sweaty you are happy on the inside even if the face you are pulling makes you look angry and confused.

Will be heading into the gym with Renee and Jayde soon and then I have promised the kids we will have a disco tonight. (It is school holidays here and I have Avah plus five of mum and dads kids here…good god y’all, how do my parents do this every day…)

So I will surely burn some calories with my moves on the dance floor. Get on down. Wooo. Now get back up again. Right on!

Over the past couple of weeks I have not really kept up with my C25K schedule. (I haven’t been totally lazy though,I have been doing other stuff - gym and my Jillian Michaels DVD) I have been a bit hesitant to get into it again because I wasn’t sure how I would go after missing a few sessions.

I am due to do it tomorrow. I am up to week 4 which involves running in 5 minute intervals. So today, I thought I would hop on the treadmill to see how I went. I covered the time display so I wasn’t watching the clock and I ended up running for 8 minutes. 

It kind of got me thinking whether following the C25K program is actually restricting me. if I had been doing walk/runs on my own, would I have pushed myself to be running longer intervals by now?

I guess it doesn’t matter now because next week I have to run for 20 minutes, Farkkkk.

Today is the first day in ages that I am home for the whole day.

I have cleaned up, folded clothes, paid bills and totally cleaned my desk which was a disaster zone. I even did 15 minutes on the treadmill. 

I am just about to order our shopping online so that I can cook some healthy meals for us all. Tonight I am working out with Jayde and I am really looking forward to it.

I am feeling much better about my blowout on the weekend. Thanks so much to everyone who took the time to write to me. The most important thing I have learnt this time around is that everyone is going to go off the rails every now and then, but what matters is getting back on track. That is where I always went wrong before. It is much easier to get back into it when you have such a great support network and so many positive influences to inspire you. So thanks again everyone. xo

Total Blowout

The last three days have been out of control. OUT OF CONTROL.

Here is the low-down of my ho-down:

Friday morning: Worked out and felt fantastic. In control.

Friday afternoon: Had Liz’s funeral. Liz and I always had a few wines together at family gatherings. In her honour, I thought I would have a wine. That turned into four.

Friday night: Slightly sloshed and at the post-wake wake, we all order pizza. At 9pm my sister arrives from Adelaide for the weekend and we ORDER MORE PIZZA. I did not have too much though, so apart from the wine, I am still feelng in control.

Saturday morning: Hungover, so I skip workout. I have not organized anything for lunch so we get hot chips for lunch. Officially OUT OF CONTROL.

Saturday night: We are at my parents place and everyone is coming over so we decide to have a few drinks. Then we eat cake and pavlova.

Sunday morning: We head off to another family gathering armed with afternoon tea. Cakes, donuts, potato chips, oh and KFC for lunch. WHAT THE FUCK!

Sunday night: Feeling full and disgusting. Have stomach pains and indigestion. What have I done?

Monday morning: Weigh self and want to cry. Fill out MyFitnessPal to work out how many calories I have actually consumed.

Monday night: Have accepted that I have fucked up and am now back on track. So mad with myself for ruining all of my hard work from the past few weeks. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

Just got these in the mail. Can’t wait to try them out.