Tonight! Tonight!

Tonight I will be attending the 21st birthday of someone I love very much, the very  beautiful Miss. Ashlea.

So, yes I will be having a drink of wine (or maybe a bottle…two at the most lol) but my sister and I spent all of yesterday afternoon organising the music and we did an awesome job (as long as 21 year olds love 80s music hehehehe) so we will be dancing our arses off. 

Would I look ridiculous wearing my HRM to the party??

Then tomorrow is the first day of the third Fatty Boomba Challenge. I don’t even know who won the last one because we went on our cruise when it finished.

This one, I am going to win.

So weigh in tomorrow morning.

Oops!

I just did something bad. Something naughty. Evil.

One of my younger sisters is here so I bought her and Avah fish and chips for tea. David and I had soup. But then I ate some of the fish and chips. And then I ate more.

So I have had like two full meals and although the soup was healthy, the rest was junk.

I know where I stuffed up though. I had lunch at 11.30 so by the time dinner time rolled around I was starving. I should have had a healthy snack in the afternoon to see me through.

Good God y’all

Three Things

1) I am going to my Mum and Dad’s for tea tonight. Roast Pork.

Yumm-frikkin-o. Just need to make sure i don’t go crazy and eat too much.

2) I have still not worked out since coming back from holidays (almost a week). I do this a bit - if I have not worked out for a while I take ages to get back into it. Like I am scared or something. Of what? Losing weight? Getting fit? Silly biatch

3) My weight is slowly getting back down to what it was before I went on holidays. Not all the way, but much better than it was.  

Yahooo!

That is all.

Cooking Day

My shopping was delivered last night (Thanks shopping delivery man) so today I am cookin’. Making a hearty vegetable curry, a yummy vegetable soup and also a batch of delicious chicken  tikka.

We will have a bit of each over the next couple of days and then I will pop leftovers in the freezer so we can have them for lunches. 

Ooh yeah..so good for you…makes my insides tingle

Had some of this for lunch and it was soooo yummy *pats self on the back*.

In other news, my weight is stabilising after the cruise *crowd cheers*.

So Farkin' Fat

I avoid mirrors and looking at photos of myself as much as I can. I live in denial. It is another way I had set myself up for failure in the past. If I could not see it, then it wasn’t there.

Well yesterday, we looked at all of the pictures and videos from our cruise. There I was in all of my morbidly obese glory. I hardly recognised myself because my face is so fat. I am lost in there somewhere. The only way I knew it was me is because I was the only short arse.

I wanted to leave the room or turn the video off because I was so embarrassed, but then I realised that this is how everyone else sees me all the time. It is just me who does not face up to it.

 When I see pictures of myself I usually think “God I am never going to do it, I just have so much to lose.” But this time I am thinking “well in another six months I am going to look and feel so much better, so COME ON…LET”S FUCKING DO THIS.”

I cannot wait to lose the next chunk of weight.

Out and about so having Subway yummy

Avah had a cookie. It is written all over her face.

Weigh Day

Weight this morning was 113.7 Kilos (250.14). That’s right, in 3 weeks I have gained 4.3 kilos (9.46 pounds).

I am so happy to be back into it. Holiday is over and time to get back to real life. 

At my Mum and Dad’s today everyone was eating potato chips and I came this close (imagine me with my thumb and pointer finger very close together and I am squinting my eyes for dramatic effect) to eating them. I was ready to munch.

But then I realised I would feel so happy tonight that I did not eat any. And I do. I always regret things like that at night but today I have no regrets and I am feeling good.

And even though my weight has gone up, I will get it back down. I can’t be upset about it because I had the best holiday.

It is OK to fall off the wagon, as long as you get back on. Right Commuters?

Back To Reality

Cruise was so awesome. We went to New Caledonia, Fiji and Vanuatu. These pics are of us leaving Sydney. We had the best time and I nearly cried when it was time to get off the ship, much to David’s embarrassment.

But now, I am back and Melbourne is freezing. (Awesome snuggling weather) (Also awesome working out weather if you ask me) (And let’s not forget all of the delicious food that it is great to eat in winter) (Awesome red wine drinking weather too but no, no I cannot do that from tomorrow)

I had a sneaky peak at the scales this morning and you, my blog, are going to be shocked. I am not even sure it is humanly possible to put on as much weight as I have in a three week period but I have managed to. I am a winner when it comes to putting on weight.

Tonight I have a double birthday celebration to attend (my dad and my sister) and I will be drinking delicious red wine for the last time in a little while. And then tomorrow I have my first official post-holiday weigh-in followed by a much-needed gym session.

I have to also do a bit of organising to set myself up for success (thanks Dr.Phil). I have to plan some meals, order the shopping, find out my HRM and Ipod, find out (and dust off) my workout gear and come up with a schedule for this week’s sweat sessions.

I have also written to the other participants in The Fatty Boomba Challenge asking if they would like to do another six week challenge but so far, nobody has replied. They are probably all working out while I am sitting here on my fat arse.

I'm Back...Almost

On our way back to Australia from our cruise.

Bad News: The scales are not going to be happy. Becasue I am going to sqaush them. Eating and drinking are what people go on cruises for. Oh, and the beautiful scenery, awesome people and to have the best time ever. Alittle scared about weighing in.

Good News: I am going to come back fighting and punching and blasting my way back to good health. See you later fat ass, you are GONE!! Am more motivated than ever.

Holiday Mode Already

Not leaving for another 2 days but am in holiday mode already (ie. Eating shit and not working out)

I know I am not going to lose weight while I am away but I really, really do not want to put on weight and ruin all of my good work.

Going to have to come up with a plan of action. (ie. Not eating shit and working out)

Don’t know if I reported my weight loss this week. I was 109.4 kilos (240.68 pounds) so a loss of 1.1 kilos (2.42 pounds) Awesome!

Saturday Walk/Waddle/Run Done!

After procrastinating all morning, I finally hopped on the treadmill and did my second run of the C25K. This one felt easier. Right on!

Now, time to start getting ready. Have to pick my sister up from the airport at 5pm and then we are going out for a family birthday dinner. Looking forward to it.

Have been eating very well today so that I can go a little crazy tonight. I have nominated myself to be the driver so I cannot drink.

This is Avah and me after my sweaty walk/waddle/run which explains the big tomato head.

Friday Night

• I had a disco tonight with Avah and her ‘girls’ as she calls them.

• While disco-ing I tried some yoga moves and I kind of really liked it. Made me feel strong. The girls weren’t as impressed with my moves as I was.

• I had my heart rate monitor on and it was not reading my heart rate and I wanted to stop working out because i would not now how many calories I was burning. Is that crazy?

• Decided to keep going and had fun.

• Tomorrow I have to do my second C25K run. I did the last one last Saturday. Slack, slack, slack

Six Days and Counting

In six days we fly to Sydney then we leave on our cruise the next day. I am shitting myself. I hate flying. the last time I went to Europe we had a bit of a scare on the plane (that turned out to be nothing) and ever since then I freak out whenI have to fly.


I have been to the pharmacy and have something called "Rescue Remedy" to take. You have to spray it on your tongue and it is meant to keep you calm.


Weight has started going back down again but we are going out for a birthday dinner tomorrow night to a Chinese restaurant. It is an all-you-can-eat kind of set up. Faaark.