Feeling so tired and lazy today so I just got up and did 15 mins on the treadmill so that I have had least done something. I have done nothing else all day. NOTHING. it was good but I feel kind of guilty.

Have plans for a big week though. Doing week five of C25K, going to give yoga a try and tomorrow I am off to the local footy oval with Avah for a bit of running/sprinting/walking/collapsing.

Went out for tea last night and I did not drink. I know, I know, I was shocked myself.

Weigh day tomorrow.

Have been so busy with work (farking work) the past few days and have also had a head cold (farking head cold) that is driving me insane.

Work is done now and I have the rest of the week off so I am going to get stuck into gym and C25K - Week 5 COME AT ME BRO!!! (not really, am a bit scared of you).

I am sooo excited, because I created a bit of a challenge for myself that takes me up to the end of the year. Less than 14 weeks to go! It is up on my wall in the bathroom so I can see it everyday.

Along with a weight loss target I am going to set some fitness goals too. (Not sure what they are yet)

On Sunday I weighed in at 106.4 kilos (234.08 pounds) so I am aiming for 104.9 kilos (230.78 pounds) this week. If I aim for the moon and miss I will end up in the stars right? Right!

Such a bah-u-ti-ful day.

Had a glorious sleep in this morning. Kept checking on all the marathoning, running, swimming and other activities that all the fit people in my ipad were doing. Got all inspired and jumped up and did Week 4/Day 3 of C25K.

Smashed it. So happy that week 4 is finally done and dusted. It was dragging on and on because of all the stuff happening over the past few weeks. Wish I was burning more calories though.

Don’t I look happy? lol. Well, when you are hot and sweaty you are happy on the inside even if the face you are pulling makes you look angry and confused.

Will be heading into the gym with Renee and Jayde soon and then I have promised the kids we will have a disco tonight. (It is school holidays here and I have Avah plus five of mum and dads kids here…good god y’all, how do my parents do this every day…)

So I will surely burn some calories with my moves on the dance floor. Get on down. Wooo. Now get back up again. Right on!

Over the past couple of weeks I have not really kept up with my C25K schedule. (I haven’t been totally lazy though,I have been doing other stuff - gym and my Jillian Michaels DVD) I have been a bit hesitant to get into it again because I wasn’t sure how I would go after missing a few sessions.

I am due to do it tomorrow. I am up to week 4 which involves running in 5 minute intervals. So today, I thought I would hop on the treadmill to see how I went. I covered the time display so I wasn’t watching the clock and I ended up running for 8 minutes. 

It kind of got me thinking whether following the C25K program is actually restricting me. if I had been doing walk/runs on my own, would I have pushed myself to be running longer intervals by now?

I guess it doesn’t matter now because next week I have to run for 20 minutes, Farkkkk.

Today is the first day in ages that I am home for the whole day.

I have cleaned up, folded clothes, paid bills and totally cleaned my desk which was a disaster zone. I even did 15 minutes on the treadmill. 

I am just about to order our shopping online so that I can cook some healthy meals for us all. Tonight I am working out with Jayde and I am really looking forward to it.

I am feeling much better about my blowout on the weekend. Thanks so much to everyone who took the time to write to me. The most important thing I have learnt this time around is that everyone is going to go off the rails every now and then, but what matters is getting back on track. That is where I always went wrong before. It is much easier to get back into it when you have such a great support network and so many positive influences to inspire you. So thanks again everyone. xo

Total Blowout

The last three days have been out of control. OUT OF CONTROL.

Here is the low-down of my ho-down:

Friday morning: Worked out and felt fantastic. In control.

Friday afternoon: Had Liz’s funeral. Liz and I always had a few wines together at family gatherings. In her honour, I thought I would have a wine. That turned into four.

Friday night: Slightly sloshed and at the post-wake wake, we all order pizza. At 9pm my sister arrives from Adelaide for the weekend and we ORDER MORE PIZZA. I did not have too much though, so apart from the wine, I am still feelng in control.

Saturday morning: Hungover, so I skip workout. I have not organized anything for lunch so we get hot chips for lunch. Officially OUT OF CONTROL.

Saturday night: We are at my parents place and everyone is coming over so we decide to have a few drinks. Then we eat cake and pavlova.

Sunday morning: We head off to another family gathering armed with afternoon tea. Cakes, donuts, potato chips, oh and KFC for lunch. WHAT THE FUCK!

Sunday night: Feeling full and disgusting. Have stomach pains and indigestion. What have I done?

Monday morning: Weigh self and want to cry. Fill out MyFitnessPal to work out how many calories I have actually consumed.

Monday night: Have accepted that I have fucked up and am now back on track. So mad with myself for ruining all of my hard work from the past few weeks. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

Just got these in the mail. Can’t wait to try them out.

Oh dear, this is happening right now.

Workout 14 September

Here is how Jayde and I motivate each other:

Ended up doing a walk down to the front gate and back. it is quite a steep hill. Last time it took me 14 minutes and I had to sit down twice. Today, not sitting and it took me 8 minutes.

Then back into the gym for some weights and some disco moves. 

Weigh-in 12/9

Weighed in this morning at 105.7 kilos (232.54 pounds) a loss of one kilo or 2.2 pounds.

Am happy with that because I had our trip to Lorne in there and also all the events from last week.

Only 1.6 kilos (3.53 pounds) away from hitting the 20 kilo (44 pounds) mark. So close……yet…..soooo….farrrrr……….

C25K Week4/Day 2

C25K Week 4/Day 2

So I slogged it out on the treadmill yesterday. Back to the C25K runs. I was pretty worried going in that I would not be able to finish because I had not done a C25K for a week and a half.

I finished but it was farking hard. It was the first time I have ever worked out and thought I might vomit. I felt like a contestant the Biggest Loser.

I burnt 169 calories. My average HR was 134, I walk and run very slowly so I expect the calories will go up as I get faster.

Today, it is into the gym to work on my core (it is in there somewhere) as I did not do it yesterday (due to the nearly vomiting thing). I will be joined by the lovely Miss Jayde.

On another note, every time I type C25K I always forget to take my finger off the caps lock so it comes out like this: C@%K, so if you ever see that on my blog anywhere I am not talking about, well, you know, a cock. lol.

Back in Control

After a week from hell last week, this week is looking brighter (thank fuck).

I spent yesterday morning cooking.

Made a vegetable curry, a healthy pasta sauce and  a fruit salad. So I have no option but to eat healthy for the next few days.

Avah and I had the fruit salad for breakfast this morning and it was soooo good. We had it with yogurt, honey, cinnamon and almonds and I kept thinking how delicious it was and how can something that tastes this delicious be good for you and why don’t I do this all the time?

So, Avah and I made an executive decision that we are going to try to eat our healthy breakfasts out on that back patio a few days a week, or at least when the weather is as good as it has been lately.

Then my princess picked me some flowers from the garden.

We are off to my Mum and Dad’s now for the afternoon, then it is back here to workout, have dinner (which is already cooked due to me being awesome in the kitchen yesterday) and then do a job for a client.

Lovely.

Back on the treadmill tonight.

Thought I would ease back into things after a whole week of not working out with a 20 minute walk on the treadmill.

I got bored pretty quickly though so alternated walking and running.

It is good to be back into the swing of things.

Apologies for being off the radar for a couple of days.

When we got back from our weekend away on Monday, our family dog Buffy was very unwell. We arranged for the vet to come Tuesday but she passed away before he got here. We had her for 11 years so it was quite traumatic for us all.

Then on Tuesday night we were woken by a phone call through the night and we were told that David’s cousin’s wife had died unexpectedly. It has kind of thrown our world into turmoil. Liz was a couple of years younger than me and she was a mum to Ivy who is only 18 months old. Liz and Andrew had just bought their first home and were due to move in this weekend. We also found out that Liz was 11 weeks pregnant with twins. How fucking sad is that?

Needless to say working out has taken a back seat this week. But now the initial shock has settled I know that I need to get back into it and to get my eating back on track so that I am not sitting around thinking about all of this constantly.

I spent the day with Andrew, Ivy and Liz’s family yesterday and while everyone is in shock and so sad, I left there feeling much better because I know they are going to be ok. So I will be strong too.

I will hopefully get back into my C25K over the weekend. My heart just isn’t in it today.

Back from Road Trip

Back from our weekend away. Here is what I have to report.

• I ate shit all weekend. I should have planned better. We had takeaway for every meal (apart from our breakfasts) because there were hardly any cooking facilities in our room. Now I feel disgusting.

Avah and David eating fish and chips

• I did not drink. I came so, so close though. We were going to go out for tea last night but decided to get chinese and eat back at our hotel. Jayde and Renee got wine and I was so tempted to get some too. I went into the bathroom and talked myself out of it. I thought about how disappointed in myself I would be and how upset I would be on weigh day. Victory!!!!!! I also did not have an ice-cream when David and Avah did. Yahoo!

Here is Zoolander eating his ice-cream

• You know how when you start exercising and eating well, you begin to feel fantastic? That is how I feel. I have lost 17.4 kilos (38.28 pounds) but when I saw pictures of myself on the weekend I freaked out. I got sad. Because I cannot see any difference. I feel awesome and I am eating better than I ever have and getting much fitter than I have been in ages but my body does not reflect that. I still have so far to go.

• We had an awesome time. It was lovely and relaxing. But I am ready to get stuck into it again tomorrow

Zoolander at Lorne.

Chopsticks

Avah is freaking me out. She is an expert first-time user of chopsticks. She is a natural. I still can’t use them.

Lorne, Victoria

At Lorne. Absolutely gorgeous day.

Going on a Road Trip

First day of Spring here and it is absolutely gorgeous outside.

Today I started week 4 of the C25K - I had to run for 5 minutes. This scared me - A LOT - but I did it. I did it.

Yay!!!!!

So, it was very, very slow and yes I had to hold on to the rail thing on the treadmill some of the time, but whatever, I feel awesome!

Now, a few of us are heading down the coast (to Lorne, which is on the Great Ocean Road) for two nights. Dropping in to see my Dad first because I won’t be here for Father’s Day tomorrow.

I was worried earlier in the week about going away because I don’t want to drink. Well, I do want to but I know if I do my weight will not go down. So, I spoke to the others and told them I hate feeling like a party pooper but I really would regret it if I drank. So I feel much better about that being sorted out before we go.

I really love to have a drink of wine and I know some every now and then won’t hurt but I need to be in control of this. I hope I stick to my guns.

Have a great weekend everyone!